Finding a Dead Body

vreccc 4 years ago

Emma,

I always find it traumatic when I see a dead body. Every funeral I've been to I always end up blubbering like a baby. When I lived in China I saw a dead body on the side of the road early one morning when I was riding my scooter back home on a country road. That was more scary than traumatic. I was riding along on my scooter when I saw what I indeed thought was a body lying on the side of the road. As I got closer, I noticed it (hmmm. my mind just typed 'it' and not 'he') didn't have a shirt on. Closer... and I saw a huge gash in its side. At the point I freaked and swerved my bike to the other side of the road and kept on riding. I didn't know what to do and just felt it was better to move on. It was early in the morning so I knew it would be discovered quite quickly. But, I must say, coming up on that so early in the morning and being all alond was indeed quite freaky.

PCaholicDotCom 4 years ago

Great Hub! I've never found a dead body but I was 10 or 11 when I saw my grandfather in a casket... my first experience with a deceased person.

I had heard a story once about a man from (london maybe?) who had passed away in his apartment. I guess he had his rent automatically come out of his retirement check and his chair was near the door...

The mail person would always slide his mail through the slot and one day he noticed (somehow) that the mail wasn't falling to the floor (couldn't hear it or something).

Apparently the guy didn't have any family and he was deceased for 4 years or something like that and his rent auto-paid and the mail piled up nearly 4-5 feet between him in the chair and the door.

~Peter

JarrodHaze 4 years ago

Very good advice.

The only thing I would add is some advice for an autopsy. I would recommend always allowing one, whether the death was for natural causes or not.

While I was an intern at Yale's Department of Pathology as an autopsy technician there were several instances in which we discovered a tumor, signs of heart disease, or other genetic factors that went undiagnosed during the patient's life. It was not until the autopsy these things were discovered.

The useful part of this is to serve the living: finding undiagnosed signs of genetic diseases or conditions can help the living seek treatment or take preventative measures now that they know they're an at-risk group.

The above guidelines are great, though... I'm glad that you're also telling people to call the police department rather than 911. :)

stonesweetie 3 years ago

I appreciate all your comments about finding a dead body. My grandaughter was at her aunts house last night and got up this am and found her aunts friend asleep on the couch. Someone was knocking at the door and she wasn't supposed to answer it so she tried waking the man on the couch. When he didn't wake up, she went in and found her aunt. It was then that her aunt figured out the man was dead. My grandaughter seems fine with what happened and says it is nothing bothering her. My concern is the *trauma* may rear its ugly head down the road. I'd like some feedback as to what we should do for her in the interim. Thanks.

Legacy 3 years ago

Thank you for your HUb. I found my father's body after he had been gone a few days. His body was not in very good condition. I was the only family around and I went into shock. As long as I kept busy I was ok. That was not quite a year ago and I still cry everyday. My dad and I were very close. All I remember of my dad still is what I found. There are no happy childhood memories because I dont remember any of them. My psychologist does not know why I have repressed all the memories and am torturing myself with nightmares. Everyone is different and will handle it all differently. If you meet someone that has found a loved ones body dont judge how they are now or say you understand because unless you have found one you dont totally get it. I thought I could imagine it before but I couldnt-it is nothing compared to the reality.

Stonesweetie,

I had my son with me when I found my dad. Depending on the age of your grand daughter it may take a couple years before it comes out. Dont push her but let her know it is ok to talk about and ok to ask questions. Answer all her questions age appropriately. It may not bother her simply because she didnt really knwow the person. You can also just in conversation ask her what she things happens when something dies. You may be surprised at what she comes out with and that may be why she is ok with things but make sure to corect any "real" errors in her thinking(like that she can se the person again or go for a visit). Kids are very resilient

UhLeeSuh 3 years ago

I'm 35 years old and I find it difficult to figure out why I've been the one designated to find dead loved ones. Most people I'm sure, go through life without ever seeing a dead body. I have found two of my friends dead! When I was 20 years old, one of my roommates committed suicide with sleeping pills and antidepressants. I will never forget the appearrance of his skin. They call it lividity (spelling?) but I knew not from learning, but from something else in my mind that he was dead....I knew it didn't look right....it looked very wrong. It was a little more than 14 years later that I found a very close family friend dead. Since I was older (this was 11 months ago), it seemed to register on a different level. When I was 20, I almost didn't even get it, or perhaps less capable of dealing with what the hell just happened. This time, I knew what it was immediately. I saw his skin and knew he had been dead for hours....and knowing that there is nothing you can do to change it or reverse it, and its too late to prevent it, is incomprehensible. It is shock, and its hard to tell when the shock wears off. I do feel like I've gone through the grieving process, but I do wonder how this effected me on a less conscious level. I don't know how to tell if I'm dealing with it well, or if I'm supressing it. I feel like I've dealt with the passing of this person, but the trauma of finding him, I don't know.

All the best to all of you dealing with something like this also

f-mann 3 years ago

life is trully short!

Broken 3 years ago

I found my soon to be mother in law dying. I was taking 4 year old to her house, she was going to watch her for the afternoon. I went in the house, she wasn't in the living room (which was odd, she always waited for us there). I called out to her, no answer. I went into the kitchen and she was lying there, next to the stove trying to breath.

I grabbed my daughter and put her in the other room. I went back into the kitchen, she had fallen down the basement steps, hit her head, crawled back up, and was dying from a heart attack. I called 911 and watched her scream for her life. She would try to breath, but kept coughing (my RN friend told me that things like that are natural. The body was trying to stay alive even if her brain wasn't). They estimate she had been lying like that for around 1 hour. That even if I had started CPR (which I didn't, but I am a certified life guard) and gave her mouth to mouth she would have probably been a veggie.

Her son and I are now in the process of breaking our engagement. I can't help but think that the stress of me finding her, and her son not being able to say goodbye has been what our break-up is about.

This is the worst thing I have ever seen or lived through. I would never wish this experience on anyone, not even my worst enemy.

thekingjohann 3 years ago

interesting hub g-ma, beacause I know you find dead bodys allllll the time.

Kim 3 years ago

My friend passed away three weeks ago. She was 72 and she had heart problems. She was found by a friend of ours after I asked him to check on her because I live five hours away and didn't hear from her for one full day. He broke into her back door and she was dead on her couch. I'm a visual person and I need to see things to visualize what he saw and he wouldn't explain to me said that she looked like she had been dead for a while. I believe ONE day. The last time she made a move online was 3:22 am Friday night/Saturday Morning and nothing more after that so sometime after 3:22 am she passed away. She still had her bed clothes on. What does a person look like after a day of being dead? Is it that bad? I feel very quilty about her death because we argued one week before her death and I was suppose to be there with her and would have arrived at her house on Friday night at around 9:30 pm. I would have been there when she died.

Becky Huggins 3 years ago

Yesterday I went to help my Aunt Vicki take care of my Aunt Pennye who was dying of Lou Gherig's disease. We all have known that she was sick, and did not have long to live. To make things even more emotional, I got married last saturday, we began planning the wedding before she went so far downhill, and my grandmother said not to postpone it. One of the things I had planned to do this week was to take my Aunt Pennye the pictures so she could see the wedding after I got them from the photographer. She was so sad that she wasn't able to make it. The week before the wedding, I took her the dress and shoes and sample bouquet, I was trying to take the wedding to her since she wasn't going to be able to attend. But I digress, yesterday my Aunt Vicki had some errands to run and needed someone to sit with her. As soon as I got there, my aunt told me to set an alarm on my phone and check on her every 15 minutes. I was sitting in the living room and not in her room because she was asleep and we didn't want to wake her. My Aunt Vicki left, and and about five minutes after she left, ten minutes before my alarm went off, I had a gut feeling to go check on her early. It's almost like someone had tapped me on the shoulder and told me to go back there. I think my Aunt Pennye told me. When I went back there, I found the body not breathing with eyes like I have never seen before. I knew my Aunt was gone. I say I found the body because what I found was not my Aunt, I felt her leaving when that gut instinct told me to go check, and I do not want to associate what I saw with the Aunt that I loved so dearly. She was an amazing woman, she had an energy and a spunk that I admired. A total of 5'4" tall, and maybe 120 lbs at her biggest, she was a tiny woman with the biggest spirit I have ever seen. Finding that body has made it difficult to sleep. When I close my eyes I see those eyes that didn't even have her color in them anymore. I am having a hard time feeling the loss, and sometimes feel like I'm losing my mind and can't breathe. It's almost like my brain doesn't associate that body with her, and I am so scared of that sight that I can't seem to feel anything else. Thank you so much for this article. I have been looking for something to help me make sense of my mind's reaction to all of this. Thank you!

Silverlining 3 years ago

wow, read every word... I hope I die before my hubby, would hate to find him in this way.

barefootsoldier1970 3 years ago

Hi, last Thursday my boss woke me up yelling "MICK, HELP ME, MICK HELP ME!!!," I yelled to him to open my door and he collapsed in. He fell face-first onto my floor (which is finished colored concrete), and the noise his face made, and the noises he was making after are giving me nightmares. Both at night and in the day! I performed CPR on him for about 8 minutes (I'm a volunteer fireman) and lost him after 400 compressions. Around 570 compressions I got his heartbeat back, but only for a minute or so. When my buddies from the fire department showed up (they're all EMT's as well) they took over for me. I gave him 603 compressions, but I never revived him. They lost and revived his heart beat 5 times before they carried him out of my bedroom. We eventually found out at the hospital that it wasn't a heart attack (like we all thought), but an anuerysm in the brain. I am freaking out daily now. I just cannot seem to get the image of his face out of my head, the noises he was making, all of the blood pooling out under his face before I flipped him over onto his back. I'm having very severe nightmares at night and during the day. I'm afraid to go into my bedroom. If it is night, I make my roommate go into or even that side of the house with me. I've slept in her room on an air mattress since it happened because I am way to afraid to sleep in my room alone. I don't know what to do, and I'm feeling like he is haunting me or something. What can I do? I really am scared and anyone who knows me knows that I'm not easily scared. I'm reading a book by Wm. Paul Young called, "The Shack" that my roommates mom gave to her to give to me. Have you read it? Do you think it will help me? These nightmares are very graphic and very terrifying!!! Any help from anyone would be greatly appreciated! Thank you, Mick

Valerie Lynn 2 years ago

Thanks, good information, and needed by those faced with this trauma. Valerie Lynn

Me instead of We 2 years ago

Three weeks ago i woke up to find my husband on the couch, called 911 ambulance arrived within 30 seconds of my call. Said Hes too far gone, He was only 29 , autopsy showed no answers for his death. Now im faced with the question of "why"

alittlebitcrazy 2 years ago

Great hub - the advice is priceless, so many people have no idea what is the appropriate thing to do in the event of a death! Something that we all will someday succumb to, yet, such a mysterious, foreign topic. Thank you for your knowledge, emmabalmer.

den1993 2 years ago

great advice.

i haven't discovered a dead body but i had to go and see my grandfather after he had past away in the hospital when i was about 6 years old, it didnt become tramatized or anything, i just kind of sheaked and cried but nothing more.

i am looking for a career to persue and i was thinking of becoming a SOCO (scene of crime officer) i and im not sure if i can handle coming into contact with a dead body like that. Does anyone know how to help or how for me to know if i can handle it??

patricia courtney 2 years ago

I totally agree with lagacy, here it is 3 am , and almost the year anevesery of when I found my uncle, I called 911 but they said they would get someone as soon as they had a car avaiable, I could have swore I heard a gurgling sound in the house,I busted open the door, at nothing thinking he may be dying, and find him in his bath room curled up in a fetal position, and he had beed ead I think they said 9 hours, when you do find someone you have to stay on the scene until the cops finishing questioning you and the coriner .. it is hard enough as is.I have had night mares ever since,one is I am in my bath room and brushing my teeth,I feel something under my feet, and look down to see a spot of blood I slip and fall, and I am laying in his bath room beside him.. I scream,another is I am walking up and find him he reaches out his hand like he needs help, and comes crawling after me. It is dreams like that y I can't sleep. And even scared of bathrooms now, crazy I know.

But let me tell you it is not the same seeing someone in a casket, I already havem and it is not the same as watching some one take there last breath I have seen that as my best friend dale took his last breath, and trust me it is totally different there color, is a different blue than I have ever saw, people think it is the same as seeing them lye in a coffin oh but no , you have nightmares,memories of that,and sleep disorders.It is not something you just forget. no where near.

Micmonbrad 2 years ago

I found a close friend/coworker in her home 2 days ago after she didn't show up to work. It was homicide/suicide at the hands of her fiance. The image of that scene haunts me each time I close my eyes to go to sleep. How long will it take for that image to fade...if ever?

A1981 2 years ago

I went to check on my mom and found her in her bed. She had been gone for a few hours. I have been suffering with horrible nightmares and increased anxiety. I know it has only been two months since she passed and I am really having emotional problems, especially at night. I can't get the picture out of my head of how she looked when I found her. Everyone who has went through such a tragic ordeal are in my prayers. Best of luck!

Empath 2 years ago

Well done!

L 2 years ago

awesome read thank you

DH 2 years ago

I've never found a dead body but I've seen 2 and I'm only 18! The first was walking across a bridge which overgoes a river. There were police cars, ambulances and rescue vans everywhere! I looked down the river to where all the police were to see them trying to pull in a womans body. That wasn't traumatising at all. More or less just surprising. The second was my grandfather. He had died in his sleep from Diverticulitis in March 2009. I personally don't think he was gone very long because his face was still warm and there was no loss of skin colour. His leg was hanging out of the bed and there was no sign of lividity. He looked peaceful in his bed, just like he was asleep. When I went to see him again in the funeral home, he didn't look like him one bit. He just looked so much different. His face was far too red and the nose and lips were too thin. I still remember how he looked in his bed but I only remember every now and again how he looked in the coffin. I would do anything to have him back. Such a great person who wouldn't harm a fly.

southpacific 2 years ago

It was abut 5 years ago, i was about 12-13 and we were playing a football match out of town... Straight to the point, i was trying to find a tap, i remember looking behind the changing room sheds and i see this rugged looking guy sitting on the ground about 10 meters away, head resting on his chest and i remember saying something along the lines of "are you okay?" thinking he was drunk i walk over, this guy had a melon size hole in his chest with bodily fluids, blood and body parts hanging out. I remember just standing there for what felt like eternity but in reality a few seconds, eyes wide open, holding my breath before running as fast as i could to find the coach... Its fascinating, until this very moment i had never thought about that day.

southpacific 2 years ago

P.S the coroners and police arrived, not only was i not asked any questions, they cordoned the area off and we still played our match? thinking back now i cant believe it...

plainsgirl 2 years ago

I had the unfortunate luck of finding a friend who had hung herself. I knew she was dead but I didn't know for how long. I called 911 and then found something to cut her down and gave her CPR. I was hoping to revive her. I knew her kids and didn't want them to be without their mother. Sounds all nice and heroic but all I felt afterwards was stupid and paranoid for attempting to save someone who was obviously dead. The paramedics didn't even try to revive her. It's still hard for me to go out in public. (I live in a small town) I don't really regret it but it's just hard to live with too. I wonder what people are thinking when they see me.

1dad1life 2 years ago

I have been sitting here reading through these in tears. Thank you to everyone for sharing your experiences.

I came on the net looking for answers, looking to see if others have experienced the same as me and I still cannot find anyone who say's exactly what they saw!

I recently lost my dad (3 months ago) after nursing him for the last week of his life. I left him for just a few minutes and when I returned to the room he was not breathing, his mouth and eyes were wide open and he looked absolutely terrified and this haunts me every day. I obviously don't know if he was actually terrified or if this is what people look like after they have just died. My dad is the first person I have seen dead. All I seem to find anywhere is how peaceful people looked and I find it so hard to know he didn't look at peace. He was sitting in the chair at the time and I do think he had gone at that point but I still got him on the floor and did CPR until the paramedics arrived but it was too late and there was nothing any of us could do.

He was a kind, caring man who would help anyone in need and I hate the thought of him being so frightened and really regret leaving him even for those few minutes.

I really want to know if this terrified look on their face when someone dies is common as so far it seems it is not or people are just too afraid to say it exactly how it is. Does anyone know the answer?

janfow365123 2 years ago

To 1dad1life,

I have a family member that is a gatekeeper - someone who sits with hundreds of people as they die and cross over. She sat with both of my grandparents as they crossed. I asked her a similar question, as my grandmother had the most strained look on her face, and my grandfather was more peaceful, but still awful to look at after. She basically told me that usually the muscles relax, and then the person looks peaceful. Sometimes, however, the muscles relax so much that they overextend and look more dramatic. The other thing I have noticed in seeing them both before and after their viewing at the funeral home, is the very creepy look in their eyes right after they pass (that is probably why in casket their eyes are closed). This is what gets me most. You can also see it in photos, like that of Neda from Iran (the girl that was shot and filmed while dying this past year). It is a cross of primal panic, and then after, something I can only describe as emptiness. It is like their eyes glaze over, their irises fail to respond to light, and their soul is gone, their eyes look eerily empty. Some people show the panic on their face, unfortunately. Especially if you are awake or completely lucid when it happens. Death to some, is still a complete surprise. It would only make sense that sometimes our face shows it. But there are others who die with a smile on their face, contentment even, or worry.

1dad1life 2 years ago

To janfow365123

Thank you so much for your honest reply, it has helped to a degree and makes sense. I appreciate it and now have a slightly better understanding. Thank you.

Annwahh  2 years ago

6 months ago I found my friend of 30 years dead in his garage. He had gassed himself in the car. He had cut the hose from his vaccum cleaner and gassed himself in his car. I found him on the wednesday and he had been there since the Friday. The onite manager had called me and advised he had not been seen around in a few days, I knew straight away some thing was wrong. I raced over there... and the manager and I opened the garage and the smell was just terrible. I called triple zero and the said I had to look in the car and see if he was still alive. I said I was pretty sure he was dead and she asked me to look in the car and check. I walked into the garage towards his car window and he had laid the seat back and I looked in and I will never forget the sight I saw. Its been 6 months and I still have difficulty going into garages. I am now living in the same complex as i owned an investment unit a few doors up which i am now living in. I put My fridge in the garage so that I had to keep going in there and I was trying to kind of make it such a normal thing to walk in and out of the garage and I think its helping. I dont think of him every time I walk in there now. My unit is the same lay out as his so its very weird for me. I am trying create different feelings about the unit complex. I still feel affected by it but i get the feeling people think i should be over it by now. I dont talk about it or anything but it is on my mind quite a bit. My partner and I broke up as I was being a bit snappy and with drawn after it happend. I ended up moving out of his house ( i moved in with him ( to another town) 3 weeks after finding my friend ) I just freaked out as it felt like I was doing too much too soon, Finding my friend, moving towns, quitting one job , starting another....After 2 months and a lot of tears I moved out, and I tried to tell him recently I felt I had post traumatic stress syndrome, But I think he just thinks im mad. He said I left and it was my choice and now he has moved on. I feel like I am going mad. Is this normal ?? Or should I be over this by now?? Thank you for listening.. Annie PS I am over the partner as i feel he was of no support at all. I am just not sure if I should be over finding my friend by now.

Michelle 2 years ago

I've been a cna at a nursing home for going on 3 years now...i started when i was 17...and I cant tell you how many ppl I have saw either dying or that has already passed. Of course my responsibility is to actually clean the deceased up b4 the funeral home arrives. I remember when I was about 4 months pregnant I walked in and found one of my residents that i was really close to laying face down in the floor...it appeared she had a massive heart attack and for the ones that dont know when someone has a massive heart attack the skin turns black...it never gets any easier seeing someone who has passed or watching someone who is in the last stages of death expecially the ones who didnt have family or the ones whos family didnt care. Its really horrible.

sadandconfused 2 years ago

two days ago myself and the construction crew next door found my neighbor on his balcony, i wasnt sure if he was deceased yet or not but i checked for a pulse and nothing, no breathing...i stinkin checked 3 times for a pulse knowing all three times there wasnt going to be anything...its strange but you just know...come to find out the time from was about 2 hours so we dont know exactly but he was very ill. His body was very cold to the touch but being that im not an examiner i do not know..i can only say the whole day at work i felt this nagging that maybe i should have performed CPR but the logical side of me knew that he was no longer with us....its something i am still processing but like many others im finding it hard to bring the good memories back to cover up the sight of him when we found him..God will heal this trauma I am sure!

the_rice 2 years ago

I've seen a few dead bodies, and none of them went peacefully. They were all killed. It comes with the job, I guess. Doesn't really seem real when you see it happen...

Keris  2 years ago

my dad passed away on august 29th 2009... i had never seen a dead body until i saw his... he was covered by a sheet in the hospital.. when i kissed his forehead he was very cold.. i kept thinking i could see a small heave of his chest.. or a slight raise of his brow as he "slept".. but i knew he wasn't alive.. he was the coldest he'd ever been.. like ice... it was like ice to kiss him... and the tubes and everything from when the nurses tried to get him to breathe were still in... there was some blood coming from his nose.. i remember discretely wiping it... but being frozen and completely in shock.. my mom cried and held on to me.. but i said nothing... i just remember wanting to run and thinking that this wasn't real and that i was outside of my body watching life happen to me

Chloe 2 years ago

On Sunday my boyfriend and I took his dog out for a sunday walk in the small village his parents live in.

We climbed a small hill and saw what looked like someone sitting, enjoying the view from the old TV mast. As we approached I started to notice that there was something very wrong with this scene. The sun was behind the man and all you could see was a silhouette, it looked like some kind of elaborate practical joke. on closer inspection his face came into focus and I could see he had a rope around his neck, with one leg caught on the front crossbar.

I feel strange for feeling shakey and sad for the man, but no remorse, he just looked so incredibly peaceful and still.

It has made me quite paranoid, how can I start to deal with this.

I went back up the hill to confirm to myself that the mast was free of his body, but it hasn't helped all that much.

He was a stranger. I thought I was stronger than I really am at dealing with things like this.

I worry about comforting my boyfriend, but I guess the best way to help is to lend him my ear?

Thankyou for the advice in this column.

Melinda 2 years ago

I lost my younger brother in October of '09. He was 43, lived alone, and my mother and his son found him in his garage, sitting in his car, garage locked, but fans on. My mom will NEVER get over this, and my brother's first grandchild is due in two weeks. We couldn't view his body because he died in the car five days before anyone found him. Only 13 people at his funeral. The autopsy showed accidental carbon monoxide poisoning, but he was suicidal in the past. Keep your loved ones close, and pay attention and take action when they mention suicide. It may not be accidental after all. Love to all of you who have lost loved ones.

Jessica 24 months ago

My son died 6 years ago of sudden infant death syndrome. He was 7 months old. Finding his body was the single most devastating thing ever. The coroner said he passed several hours earlier. I thought I was dreaming,I threw up and refused to believe it was real.But that image of his face will haunt me forever. He was a beautiful little boy and however much that image is ingrained in my head, the memory of his smiling face trends to chase the nightmare from my mind.

Chris 24 months ago

i was raised since a baby by my grandmother and when i was 18 i opened her bedroom door cause it was late for her to be sleeping. and she was lying on the floor half nude with her head under the bed. i couldnt think except to call for help. i loved her very much. and not only to see my grandmother dead but the condition she was in traumatized me and i cant get it out of my head. the 911 operator made me make sure she was dead but i knew she was to begin with but i still touched her arm and it was cold as ice. it still makes me upset to think about it

Susan 23 months ago

Three months ago, my brother shot himself in the mouth and killed himself. I found his body in the closet and cannot get that memory of him out of my mind. I have tried to replace it with good memories, but I am having a really hard time.

Aaliah 23 months ago

I was friends with a lady & her husband who had moved into my old unit and we always stayed in touch as i had only moved 1 street away. Last night i was driving home and turned into my street only to have the ambulance come out of nowhere and cut me off then turn down my friends st. I carried on home then recieved a phone call from her after the medics gave up. i immediately went round somehow believing the body would be gone as i knew i wouldnt cope seeing him. He was there on the floor. Half covered by a sheet. his wife saw me and started wailing and all i could do was sit beside her. I have and am still helping her to cope and am looking after their son. But i am not coping with actually seeing him like that. Just no life or anything. It wasnt even my husband yet i am almost in the same state as her. I dont know what to do. I know life ends but i well lets just say i am crying on and off and feel a deep sadness that wont lift. I dont know what to do with myself.

Isaiah 22 months ago

I am glad to have stumbled across this website to share the experience of finding a dead loved one. I never thought it would happen to me but now I know why my father wanted me to bury him. It's been a month now that I found my father at 1am in his bathroom dead. It was a shock at first but I maintained my composure and notified everyone that I needed to. I haven't had any nightmares but I was a little jumpy in the beginning. What has helped me cope with this is to accept the fact that death is inevitable to all of us. I had started preparing myself a few years back to deal with this because I had a gut feeling my father one day would not be around. 1 week prior to his passing away, I was getting the feeling and hearing voices in my head that he didn't have much time...something that I didn't want to accept. I know it's still early but learning to accept the truth about our mortal selves helps alot.

Siobhan 22 months ago

My advise is to get help, I found somebody my brother knew hanging from a slide at a kids play park last year and was traumatised, i have only just visited that park again recently and couldnt look at the slide for flashes in my head, a have nightmares every couple of nights and have only just arranged an appointment to speak to somebody, it has ate at me for over a year... i have had a little girl and want to be able to take her to the park without bad memories...

anybody who finds someone they knew or didnt i would strongly advise speaking to somebody straight away

x

Tubby54 22 months ago

It has been a week in a half since I came into my house and found my roommate laying naked in the kitchen floor dead. the house was completely dark and I knew when I unlocked the door that something was wrong. When I turned on the light his jaw was open and green was around his eyes and forehead. He had ripped a piece of wood off the kitchen counter and was holding it, he must have been in some incredible pain. It was dark in the house and I felt something was wrong when I walked in the house. I have a tremendous faith in God and feel guilty that I can't lay this at rest because I'm like the rest of you that has been in this situation. I don't like to be alone and it is really difficult to sleep. I'm not one that is afraid but I find myself full of anxiety at nights and don't like to be in the dark. I pray that these feelings will dissolve and I can get on with my life. I've been looking for some help and answers. Thank you for the experiences that have been shared!

Chgodee 21 months ago

It's only been a week! I could not get ahold of my boyfriend the entire day. I had a horrid, sick feeling all day. I ran to his house and found him dead on the couch. The medical examiner said it was Ichemic Brain Stem Stroke. I have a feeling he was gone for an entire day. It was the most traumatic, hysterical experience of my life. I have lost both parents, one just 10 months ago and I grieved naturally. I don't think I'll get over this one ever. I have flashes of that vision of him keeled over on the couch. It's an out of body experience almost. Like how did something that only happens in movies happen here?

Does anyone have any advise on how to move on...to grieve and get thru your life. He was only 55 and I saw him the day before. No complaints, no symptoms. This is the scariest and most depressing thing I have been through. I feel like my life will never ever be the same.

Robert 21 months ago

Over my lifetime (I am 57) i have looked at the bodies of many dead friends and relatives. Over the last 2-3 years I have been at the funerals of 4 people who had commited suicide. The first three bodies, whom I viewed at their loved ones request, looked little different than any other body that I have seen, in fact they looked quite at peace. The devastation and pain in the lives of the bereaved families was terrible and obvious to see. However, nothing could ever prepare me for the absolute horror, shock, trauma and terror of finding the body of a work colleague and friend who had hung himself on a wall bracket in his flat in April 2009. He had not been seen for 2 days and I was asked to break into his flat. The scene was horrendous and over 14 months later I am still deeply affected with the trauma. I still suffer from nightmares, deep anxiety and depression. I didn't get support for many months as I thought that as a Christian I should be able to cope with the situation and shouldn't feel the way i felt. In my mind I can still see the whole devestating scene of a bloated, blue body hanging on the wall. I have been on medication for a year now and counselling since January but from the time of the incident it is as if a light went out in my life and never came on again. My health has deteriorated to the degree that I have been pensioned of on medical grounds. I know that my friend must have suffered terrible mental pain to do such a thing, but i wonder if he had known of the pain, devestation and hurt that he has left behind would he have thought differently.

eric  20 months ago

I found my fathers dead body on the second day of my senior year in highschool. I woke up late that morning which was very odd cause my dad being the man that he was would never allow me to sleep in because to him school and a proper education was of utmost importance. I woke up and went through a speedy routine of brushing the teeth and washing my face normally I would have showered but seeing as how i was late I just went with the neccessities. My dads door was shut the whole time I was getting ready. I should tell you that a year before this day or maybe a year and some change my parents decided to get seperated. I was going to live one year with my mom and my senior year with my dad. I knew he would keep me on track and make sure I was accepted into a decent college. So when I still saw his door shut at around 6:45am I assumed he had wonken up earlier had a bite to eat and was off. I had my back pack ready and I was on my way out of the house when I decided to just open the door and take a peak because something seemed off about the whole thing. As the door opened I didn't notice anything out of the ordinary he wasn't in his bed so as I was closing it I leaned in more and saw him on the floor his feet were tangled in the sheets and his body was on his side his head was kind of stuck between his dresser and a desk. He was nude and there was a strange smell in his room. I knew he was dead but I still decided to like pull his body out of that terrible position he was in. I reached down and pulled on the blankets to try and lift him up I remember he was heavy and i lost controll for a min and his head smacked against the dresser. I pulled him out and layed him down flat on the floor. I tapped on his chest and said dad dad he was cold to the touch and his fingertips were white there was alos some dried froth on the side of his mouth. The gashes on his head where he hit the furniture had dried. I pulled a sheet over his face left the room and closed the door. As I was walking to the kitchen I remembered thinking that this wasn't an emergency because his life was over not in danger. I never learned in a school what number you call to come pick up a dead body. So I dialed 911

Melinda 19 months ago

My mom and my nephew found my brother in his car, deceased for five days. I can't imagine what my mother and my brother's son went through when they found him there. That was one year ago, October 15th, I still have terrible dreams of finding my brother dead. And Free Bird still makes me cry. The only song at his funeral. God bless you all who have suffered loss. It is so hard.

Katrina 19 months ago

In january of 2009 my dad found his mom (my gramma) dead in her big arm chair at about 5 in the am. September of 2009, just 2 weeks after his 41st birthday, and just 2 days after my younger daughter was born (so thats the day after i got out of the hospital), I found my dad dead in my older daughters bedroom. I woke up at about 7 to feed my new baby. My older daughter was crying in her room which she does every morning for me to come get her. I hadn't notice my dad up and thought it was weird for him to sleep this late, he usually has his smoke around this time. So I go to my daughters room, open the door, quickly glance at him and then go to my daughter. I thought he was just sleeping. Just as I'm getting ready to pick up my daughter I say "dad wake up, its morning" but he didn't respond, so instead of picking up my daughter i went closer to his face and yelled DAD like twice and he didn't even flinch. At this point i noticed he had a foam like substance covering his mouth. I yelled to my fiance "Oh my god, there's foam in my dads mouth" and I ran out of the bedroom forgetting about my daughter. My mom ran in and called my dads name and shook his shoulder, then she grabbed my daughter and came to me. My fiance went in to the room, called my dads name, shook his shoulder then called 911. I was about to completely fall apart when my fiance came to me and said "you have 2 kids who need you, get up" so i did. After the paramedics confirmed he was gone I phoned the necessary people to let them know. Just a few weeks ago I received a detailed autopsy report (which I had requested) and it said they could not find any ANATOMICAL CAUSE OF DEATH. Now I will never get closure. I will never know why my dad left at his young age. I loved him and I miss him and I cry for him often.

Suzie51 19 months ago

I also found my boyfriend in his home dead. There was a strong chemical smell from him trying to clean paint off of his bathroom counters, left by messy painters. This was 9 days ago.His autopsy showed no physical causes, we must wait fo 6-8 weeks to see if it was from fumes. The paramedics hosed me off with a firehouse because of the chemical exposure, and I spent the night in the hospital. Though we have been in a commited relationship for three years, his ex-wife played the grieving widow at the services and I was not even mentioned. I feel numb, and as if I am in a nightmare I can't wake up from.

kokiris 18 months ago

well it seems like a thing someone should be ready for i mean to see someone like that is messed up ive heard of and seen almost 4 deaths or dead body sightings in person well.....it will happen to you me and everone one day and becouse of death there is always procreation well all share my stories

1. i was riding the bus to school one day and one of my child hood friends was crying at the stop were the bus usaly picks him up but right after i noticed him crying i noticed that the police were at his house and an ambulance right then and there they were carting the body away into the ambulance so my freinds "parent" waved the bus on and we didnt pick him up about 4 weaks later my friend returned to school and 2 years later he actualy told me of how his father died that "day" he said his father had molested him weaks before then and on that day in the middle of the night my freind was geting a drink of water when he noticed his mother in the bathroom as he walked by his mom and dads room the door was open by a crack when he interd he saw his own dad blow his brains out right infront of him sad..........

2.i was playing a video game when my dad came in the room and told me about the news aparently one of are family freinds died he shot himself in the chest with a gun and left a note on his belly that said he was sorry but me and my family didnt know what he was talking about but his wife did so we went to the funerale and well... it was very sad sader than i expacted it was a "open coffen" cermony so i got to look at his face but it just pissed me off the look on his face he didnt die with a smile and the mourtarary guys didnt do a good job he had a sad sad look on his face danm.....

3. well i was about 8 or 9 when this happend so my memories are kinda fuzzy so i dont have detail but hear it is one of my friends from were i lived along time ago he was maybe 6 or 7 well he said something like look what i can do and he motered off into the road but an 18 weeler ran over hiis soft squishy baby like body in 3 secounds it was probably the sadest thing ive ever seen

4. well... i was going out for a walk and i saw a mans body captured in a farming tractor blade machine i freaked out and tried to pull him out but his bones and his meatish like tissue was keeping me from puling him out but when i did pull him out his arms and tissue were stuck to the machine blades so all i got out was his torso his legs and his head so i was just kinda coverd in blood i was so scared and frantic that i passed out when i woke up i was being carted in an ambulance along with what was left of the guy who was stuck in the tractor scarest thing i ever had to deal with and i live out in the country

havinfunwkj@aol.com 18 months ago

LOVE UR HUB!!!!!!!!!!!!! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!! SORRY TO SAY U R GREAT BUT THE PEOPLE THAT WRITE AND SHARE THEIR STORIES MAKE THE SITE WHAT IT IS GREAT!!

Jo Van Niekerk 17 months ago

I am so glad to have found this site. I found my dad in his caravan. The last we spoke was on a Thursday. I found him on the Sunday. He was already decomposed and bloated. I knew that he was gone before I got out of my car. Seeing all the flies accompanied by the terrible smell and that numb feeling. We did not have this big father- daughter relationship, but I did expect to feel something. Anything. I feel terribly guilty though for not being able to get through to him to turn to God. I was the only one who was left to arrange everything. I cleaned up the mess in the caravan all by myself. Let me tell you, it is devastating to scrape bits and pieces of your dad of the floor with a shovel. I still can't cry. It has been 2 months. I have too many responsibilities to take care of. My children (age 6 and 4) can't see me crack. I have nobody to talk to. My husband is not the one for showing or dealing with emotions. He expects everything to go on as before. I keep smelling my dad in our house. I still can't eat rice. It reminds my too much of those maggots that crawled all over him.

I don't know anymore.

cristin  17 months ago

I found my dad and mom shot and dead in their home a month ago while droping my 7 year old off to stay with them for the day. They deemed it a murder-suicide when I know it was not. I dont know how to cope, deal, get the visions out of my head. My daughter is seeing a shrink but my insurance doesnt cover mental. Any suggestions on how to cope would be greeatly appriciated.

Stan 17 months ago

So I know that working through the details of an incident is most likely vital to the process but holy hell this page that started out seeming so thoughtful is starting to seem really morbid.

Today I found a friend who dies most likely during the night. I was glad to see that the introduction mentioned acceptance might be one of the reactions because for me it certainly was. My friend had health problems associated with an alcohol problem so I wasn't shocked to see he had passed. Still it effected me more than I thought it would. This evening to escape the images I encountered I had three scotches and I sat down for a movie. When the movie ended I broke down crying for no reason. I believe the funeral will help but honestly I think the most disturbing thing to me is the waste of life. There is a person in front of you one day that might help another person in some way or do some compassionate act in an instance all potential for good is finished.

LynninAZ 16 months ago

Driving home last Friday, I saw a woman on a bicycle get hit by a car. I pulled off the road to see if I could help the driver and the victim. When I got to the victim, she was crumpled up on the sidewalk and blood was pouring out of her head. She wasn't moving. I called 911 while other people gathered around the victim. She wasn't wearing a helmet and the blood poured from her head and ran down the gutter so fast, in mere minutes. I was so shaken. Took a pulse, felt for breathing, there was none. By the time someone tried to move her over and provide CPR, the ambulence showed. When the EMT's moved her onto the body board, her scalp fell open.

I felt pretty wierd about it that day. To this day, I still feel stunned. I also feel somewhat guilty for not helping more...but feel the woman probably wouldn't have survived anyway.

I am hoping the "strange feeling" I keep getting goes away soon.

Katie 16 months ago

I understand what it's like to find someone dead. I found my dad's ex-girlfriend dead in a lot of blood and with blood everywhere almost a year ago. I am really missing her. It's hard especially around this time of the year and the smell of the air and the snow on the ground reminds me of her. It bring the memories of how I found her and I blamed myself for a long time because I didn't check on her sooner and didn't save her.

Time 16 months ago

on the 19th of december, i came home from my part time job. I noticed the lights werent on in the living room so i thought that was odd.

But as i got in and turned the light on, i smelt vomit and then i saw my mum dead on the sofa. Finding the woman i love more than anything in this world dead is the worse pain in the world.

I need her all the time, i have so much to tell her and ill always want to tell her all these things that ill never will be able to again. And this messes me up everyday.

I cant get the day ou tof my head, the whole process flashes into my head.

I dont know what to do.

Susie 16 months ago

I found my mother dead after she had been lying on her back porch for 5 days, this was 3 months ago...I know that image will never leave my mind....! I find a weird comfort in knowing she was found by someone who loved her and not a stranger or that her heart attack did not kill her in a busy shopping centre, she would have hated to have died like that !

Loz 16 months ago

Thank you for this thread. I really needed to know all of this. It comforts me that I read about the detail of other people's trauma. I don't know anyone that experienced the same thing I did.

3 months ago I woke up early and I looked out my back window to see a body hanging from a tree. I called out to my boyfriend and we called the ambulance. It was my 19yr old neighbour. Her legs were purple and her face/tongue was bloated. Her eyes were open. I will never forget her face.

I held her legs and tried to hoist her body up to get rid of the tension on her neck. My boyfriend cut her down. Meanwhile her mother saw and was screaming in the back yard. The other neighbour ran over and began CPR. I am fairly certain she was already dead.

I couldn't be left alone for weeks. I couldn't sleep. I camped out on the floor of my boyfriend's study until he went to bed because I couldn't go into the bedroom without him. I couldn't go outside at night. I couldn't shut the window at night and I still wait to look out the window and see another dead body.

Thank you for your stories. It helps.

JB 16 months ago

I found a dead girl back in November. She had been struck by a suv and the driver didn't stop. I was on a first date with a girl when we saw her. I didn't know what had happened to her at the time. My first that after I saw the blood coming out of her mouth is that someone beat her to death and dumped her body on the side of the road. I feared for our safety if we stayed around waiting on the police. Since this was only half a mile from my home I elected to call the police from there.

I can tell you that not one day goes by that I don't see her lifeless eyes starring at me. The nightmares have calmed down somewhat. I keep feeling like I should have stayed with her. RIP Sammy.

beagle 15 months ago

I was outside washing my car on Easter Sunday about 25 years ago. Suddenly, the woman across the street comes running out her front door crying hysterically for someone to call 911. I ran inside and dialed 911. Of course they wanted to know what the circumstances were and I did not know. I just told them to hurry and send an ambulance before someone died. After I hung up I ran across the street to see if I could help. I walked inside the house and followed the commotion into the bedroom where on the floor lay an 11-year-old boy with a belt around his neck. His face was green and there was mucous at the corners of his mouth. It was obvious he was already dead. Passersby stopped and came into the house to see what was going on and to see if they could help. One fella began administering CPR. The story I heard later was that the boy asked his mother if he could go swimming at the pool, and she said no. So he went into his room, slammed the door, and was throwing a fit. Some time had passed. She went to check on him as it had gotten quiet. She found him hanging in the closet.

michael 15 months ago

I found my friend who shot himself in the head almost a year ago.

Ed 14 months ago

My roommate and I found our landlord, also our friend, in his bed on Thursday, today is sunday and I am not really doing so well... I wish I had not seen him, but the man on the phone (9-1-1) asked me to check and make sure he was not breathing. The man who passed was Garry Maines of Windsor, ME and he took my family and I in when we were in need and helped us more than I would ever be able to ask anyone to. Thank you for everything Garry... We will all miss you!

stacey 14 months ago

I am 43 years old when I was 6 I lived next door to a women I called grandma. The homes were very close together so it was December she was shoveling snow right next to my bedroom window playing saw her waved to her with my little brother. Next thing I know I look and she is laying face down in the snow. My little brother thinks she was sleeping I knew a little better watched the ambulance come she was already deceased. I lived in that house another 4 years never wanted to sleep in that room again I was tramatized and when I had to sleep there I slept with my feet againist the window near where she passed away thinking she was going to come back and get me and I could kick if I had to. My parents did not believe in getting me help they just kept telling me the dead cannot hurt you. I was tramatized and will never forget it as long as I live.

lisa 13 months ago

hi i came a cross this web page because i am still graving over lossing my little brother 6 years ago i remember it like it was yesarday my brother was 18 years old and i can remeber seeing him last alive it was the 11th of july as well would call it bonefire night i night were you had a drink have a laugh and dance but that night was not like that i remeber dancing but looking over at my little brother to make sure he was ok then i saw he got into a fight and i ran to the back off the shops beside the bone fire and i saw some we boy was shouting to him at the wall and i said to him just go home because he was upset and i wanted him to be safe with my mum as she was in the house and the last time i saw him alive was when i looked at him and he had a bottle of beer in his hand and throw it to the ground and walked on home but he always huffed i thought thats what was the matter he would be ok in the morning then i had to leave my nanny down home to my mums house and my nanny does not drink so when i was walking in i pretended to my mum my nanny was drunk and my mum was watching tv and i went up to the window and sat on the seat beside the window and my mum said will you go out and let the dog out of the dog run because she was barking all night and it was dark outside 10 oclock and i went out the door and shut the door behide me and opened the back door and i saw him the shock i could not talk i could not shout all i could do was shake and tears come out of my eyes and i walk closer to him and i see his lips are pale and i put my hands on his cheeks his face is so cold like ice and i start shaking bad and my hand slip from his face and i run into my mum trying to scream but nothing would come out i stood beside my mum and my mum said what happened whats the matter she is shouting she see the terrier on my face but no word would not come out then i got out samuel and she said samuel what and i said hanging and she shouted NO what NO please not my baby she ran out looked and ran to the kitchen and i ran to the kitchen to to phone the ambulance and my mum ran past me with a knife in her hand the hospital people told me what to do with him i ran to my mum and told her what to do she had cut him down cleared his air way pumping his chest and beathing thow his mouth and she looked at me and said please help me please and i said what and she said breath throw his mouth he is my little brother i was one year older than him i bent down beside him i knew in my heart he was way but i could not say i put my hand over his nose and breathed throw is mouth and i tasted that he was dead our smelt it i was sick down the side of him and said mum he is dead and she said no not my baby she did not stop the ambience came out and i showed them were he was and they went out to him they said my mum was beating his heart for him when she let go his heart stopped but he was not alive he dead i miss him every day and will never get over what happened i know that now people says it gets easier i dont think so i think of him every day thank you for taking the time to listen to me

Amy 13 months ago

hi! i met my partner last year,he was everything i had ever wished for.funny,charming, handsome,intelligent,popular,to name a few.we hit it off instantly,spent all our time together,i got on with his friends and family and vise versa.

he was 21 years older then me,but that was not a problem he was young at heart,i just couldnt believe my luck,i was totally smitten.We were always laughing,joking and giving each other banter. we hadnt been together long,but we had starting making plans for our future. 9 months ago i went to his house shortly before i was due to pick my little boy up from school.i knocked on the door but he didnt answer.i looked through the letter box and there he was hanging from the stairs. i have never felt pain like it.i miss him so much,he never left a note.i am finding the aftermath very hard,am now suffering bad anxiety and at times is controlling my life.this happened 9 months ago now. in a way its conforting to no im not the only 1 that is going through these emotions xx

Nes84 13 months ago

Iv been friends with my partner for a year and a 1/2 we started dating at the beginning on january & due to being friends for so long we had the same intentions for a relationship we were both looking to settle down in time. I had hurt my back so I was off work at that time & from our 1st date I let my guard down and opened upto him i had never been in love before and he treated me like a princess 24/7 & we both feel madly in love within a few weeks, I remember him saying that we were soul mates and that was only a few days of dating and I remembered laughing at him & he told me the 1st time he seen my photos on facebook he feel in love lol we had 2 amazing months months together and I felt like I was in a fairy tale he was my prince charming. we had planned our whole future together marrige, kids and it all we had a custom made diamond engagment ring being made. He had an operation on his shoulder 4 days before he passed away he was sick with bronchitious on the thursday night i was so exhausted I feel asleep on the lounge and in the morning I woke up to take him to the doctors as his bronchitous was worse. I walked into our bed room to find him laying on his left side which is the arm that he had operated on and he was in that much pain I knew that something was wrong straight away as he couldnt move without being in alot of pain. I yelled out his name and he didnt answer me, i then jumped on the bed tryed 2 roll him over and he was cold, his lips were blue and I couldnt move him I called 000 straight away his eyes were closed and the operator said I had to roll him over and I told her I cant move him, I couldnt feel a pulse but I could feel air comming out of his nose she then replyed I had to try to roll him over so on my 3rd attemped I basiclly had 2 jump on top of him & when I did that he was purple from his neck all the way down to his boxers I started screaming & the operator said I had 2 give him CPR I knew deep down he was gone but I didnt want 2 believe it I tryed 2 tilt his head back but it wouldnt move the operator then said I had 2 drag him off the bed to peform CPR I still dont know how I moved him it took me 5 attemts to drag him and while I was dragging him off thw bed the mattress came as well as it was dead weight, I got him on the floor and still couldnt tild his head so I have him CPR through his nose but due to not being able 2 tilt his head all my air was comming out of his mouth I gave him CPR until the parametics arrived that was 10 excrusating mins and when the parrametics arrived the said he was rigermortious and I completly lost it broke down and started screaming shock had worn off.. its been 2months now and my heart is still broken, Im still having nightmares, the doctor has put me on sleeping tablets as I cant fall asleep by my self. He was the love of my life and its so hard to move on iv been through such a trumatic experiance and its so hard 2 get back to normality I will never ever forget that horrible morning i AM very grateful that god took him in his sleep as their is so many other ways he could have died. iv got so many amazing memories with him their wasnt one bad moment together knowing that he was in so much pain due 2 surgery & the night before he died he took to many due to being in pain, lack of sleep and physiclly and mentally exhausted brakes my heart all he was trying to do was take away the pain & he accidently took to many and in his sleep his heart stop. I will always love him and I know in time I know I will move on but right now im still grieving and only time will heal my pain ;o(

sternamy 12 months ago

When I was sixteen my father had an addiction to prescription drugs. Since him and my mother had separated his use of pills got progressively worse. He was no longer the dad I always knew, there were many instances that I'd try to help him whether it be skipping school to make sure he didn't hurt himself or calling the ambulance to take him to the hospital. My mother went as far as to call his doctor to explain that he wasn't taking his pills as prescribed and that he'd take 10 or 15 at a time. On July 24th 2008 My step aunt (one of his enablers) had called the ambulance and hadn't informed me even though my dad lived 2 doors down from my mother. When I saw the ambulance I had rushed over. My aunt had told me that she thought that he had pneumonia, She was too stupid to understand that pills screw up your respiratory system. That night the ambulance didn't take my father because he had refused. They explained to me that they couldn't take him. Mind you he couldn't walk much less speak but they still said he refused. so as the ambulance left my aunt had went into her purse and pulled out a bottle of pills. I had threatened her life if she were to give them to him, but of course she did. The next day July 25th 2008, I walked into my dads house to see if he had awoke from his pilled up stooper. I walked into his room and shook the bed trying to wake him. His eyes were open so I couldn't understand why he wasn't responding, so I touched him and then I knew I had lost my dad. I have never went through something so horrible. I felt and still do feel guilty, hurt, angry. It has ruined my life. I can't sleep because every time I close my eyes I have nightmares of walking in and finding him. It has been almost 3 years and I feel like it just happened yesterday. I share my story to see if anyone has had a similar experience and if they have that they aren't alone.

Mr McClure 12 months ago

I'm reassured that I'm not the only one that can't get these images out of my head.

I'm running out of Rum and Nytol.

Sleep well, D.

suzmitchell 10 months ago

This weekend we were boating at a lake and heard a woman call for help, when we arrived her boyfriend had keeled over and was blue. I swam to their boat and started cpr, their boat would not run, so we transferred him to our boat and started for the dock, which was over 6 miles away. I did mouth to mouth while another gentleman did the compressions. All I knew was his name was Jim. I have sense learned that he did not make it. I am having a hard time coping, I keep seeing his eyes, and feel like I should have tried harder or done something, anything different. Help!

Mason 9 months ago

My 30 yr. old son completed suicide in 2000 and I found him. Lot of emotions to be dealt with when someone chooses to end their life that are not present when it is an accident or natural causes. Never get over it but,over time you develop coping skills. The big thing is accepting that it is NOT about you but, about the pain your loved one was experiencing. They were not trying to get away from you, just that horrible dark hole that was their life. Twenty years of counseling couldn't stop it from happening. If you are to survive you must turn it over to God. You can't have a future if you continue to live in the past.

Jess 9 months ago

Just heard a couple of days ago that my brother was found dead of a heart attack and was dead approx, 2 weeks. Feel so bad for him and for those who found him His wishes were for creamation , no service.My heart aches for him, I had not seen him in years. I place him in God's Hands.

maintinanceman2 9 months ago

well i work in a hotel and unfortunetly its were some go to do the unthinkible..5 days ago we had a guest that wouldnt open her door..so it's my job to use my tools to get in and thats when my boss and i found her..she had done some terrible things to herself and her pet..it was most bizarre and just ugly to find..very sad and both myself and my boss are having a difficult time dealing with the whole situation..it was gruesome and im not gonna burden the readers with details but wanted to share a part of this so it wasnt within me..hope you never have this to you....

Heartbroke 9 months ago

Big brother went missing . After breaking into his house, he was there already bloated and stained from heart bursting. Traumatized for life.

KM 8 months ago

When I was a young lass I really enjoyed camping out at a specific camp ground in Kemptville,ONT. Anyways, I was about 7-9 years old, I don't recall... I was taking a walk with my parents along the a trail on the river bank and where the trail ended there was a large opening with a main road out to the highway. At the rivers edge I could see men in bright yellow uniforms taking things out of the lake. No blanket or tarp covering the scene at all. I stared as they picked up what I realized was a pale, greenish human arm, feet and what looked like a thigh from a distance and then many other odds and ends. That was my first encounter with a dead body... or at least the pieces.

Deeoc127 8 months ago

When I was 19 my mothers boyfriend went missing. They were together for 6 years at this point so he had been in my life for quite a while. He had a pretty messed up history and even then, i knew he was dead. I just figured he was in a motel somewhere. Coincidentally, this Monday morning my mother was at the police station filing a missing persons report and I was at home walking my dog. Neither of us had checked my garage because it never occurred to us. SOmething made me peek in there. I cupped my hands over the window and sure enough, there he was hanging from the rafters from an orange electrical cord. I was in so much shock that I dropped my dogs leash and starting screaming and panicking. The weird thing is, is that I didn't believe it, I had to force my self to go look again before I called the police. In my panic a women had found my dog and brought her back and thought that my missing dog was the reason why I was in that state. I didn't tell her why. My mother was at the police station when they got my phone call and made her stay there because she wasn't ok to drive.I am 27 and still think about that image pretty often. I don't know if that's normal or not but it definitely left a lasting impression in my mind. He had been hanging there since x mas eve for 4 days. Oddly enough he looked fine being that he was frozen. Great site btw. I feel like I had a reason to get some of these thoughts down and out of my head. Thanks.

no name 8 months ago

These story's are all so horrible! I'm so sorry to those who have lost a loved one. God bless.

Pam 7 months ago

I got to my aunt and uncle's house first after a call from his neighbors that he hadn't been seen in a few days. Police figure he'd been dead for three days. My aunt suffers from dementia, and she'd stayed in the house with him all those days. I can't seem to get past the image of him dead on the floor. I have to sleep with lights on and for a while had to sleep with the t.v. on, too. My thoughts are scattered in a really weird way. It's like I can't concentrate like I could before. I'm putting stuff away in weird places and then wondering where things are. Don't have energy for anything. Don't really care about anything. Really fatalistic -- like why do anything because we're all just going to end up dead on the floor. Feels like something short-circuited somewhere. Anyone have any thoughts on how long this is going to go on? It's been about seven weeks and the only thing better is that I can sleep through the night now.

momof2 7 months ago

Me and my husband came up on a wreck on our road where a neighbor had been hit by a car while walking. We did CPR on him, but he was already dead. The image of him haunts me everyday laying in the ditch and the horrific way he looked. Today his body will be put to rest and I pray that this will help me to move forward.

Jevon 7 months ago

umm i didnt find a family member or anything like that i was in the woods at rouge park, taking photos of the fall foliage and i found a guy lying in the middle of the woods with a bag around his head with a tube hooked up to a tank of what i assume was helium because it said balloon time on it, i dont know if he was murdered or if it was suicide, but i keep seeing his head, with the bag over it and his large bloated stomach, this was only about 2 hours ago, everything feels so surreal

Ashley Anderson 7 months ago

Today I found my neighbor in our joint laundry room face down. I froze, yelled for help, called 911 and began CPR. My attempts did not work. I am 28 and well, I never had came across someone in death's grip. He died and he is frozen in my mind.... going to be a long night... RIP Tony :(

karen 7 months ago

I found my little brother dead this morning. He was only 16 but he had a medical history of seizures and he was autistic. His face was the scariest thing. His eyes were vacant and half open but the black part of his eyes were visible. His lips were white with dried foam around his lips and separated making his teeth visible and they were clinched together. His arm was stuck in position by his stomach but with his hand folded and dangling in an awkward way. They said he died from a seizure that morning. He was so cold when I went to turn him over. I can't get the image out of my mind and I don't think I ever will. The EMT's didn't even try to revive him. When I was talking to the operator she told me to open his mouth so that I could give him CPR but I couldn't pry his mouth open his jaw was too tight. I kept saying he was definitely dead and I didn't try hard enough to save him. Mostly because i was so scared of his dead eyes. I wanted the paramedics to do more, they didn't even try to do anything. Every time I close my eyes I see his dead face. I wish I hadn't found the body.

Pam 6 months ago

Seems to be a lot of us saying we wish we hadn't found what we found, so...thanks for sharing your stories. There's some strength to be found even in our shared horrors. My heart goes out to everyone who's posted here. We're part of a nasty club we didn't want to join, but if we keep our forward focus and maybe try to blur what's in the rearview a bit, maybe it'll be okay. That said, I was very careful about what I tuned into for Halloween television viewing last night. Once you've seen the real deal, that stuff is just annoying.

Kameron D 6 months ago

I have seen many dead people. I work at a hospital so it is bound to happen. There was a night when three people on my floor passed and I assisted with all the preparing for the funeral home.

Just three days ago I sat with my grandmother as she took her last breath. It was expected though and very peaceful. She meant the world to me. She was not only my grandma, but she was my mom and dad too. I am at a total loss right now. One thing I am very thankful for is that her death did not happen in some horrific way.

X 6 months ago

I found my best friend dead a few weeks ago. She was fine the night before. Then I found her the next morning. She was cold. I was frantic. Nothing I could have done, EMS said it happened hours prior. The image is burned into my mind, but I try to replace it with happy images. Your post was the first post I found on this topic a couple of days after it happened. Thank you for posting this topic. I'm now a member of this "club". Attending the Memorial Service was helpful in erasing this memory and replacing it with more pleasant ones. But the image still creeps into my mind, sometimes I let it...it helps me to realize it really happened.

Shiro 6 months ago

I am 25 years old- my father a marathon runner- private practice dr- looked 40 but was 61- because he was so predictable- I went looking for him at his local jog spot when he was late for a patient.. It was Odd for him to b late for anything.. I there found my beloved father under a body bag and police surrounding him... I had to tell my mother.. And trust me a part of me has definatley died.

Wish I would have listened 5 months ago

I wish I would have listened to that still small voice of the Holy SPirits promptings and either called or went to see someone. I ignored it and got a call from relatives wanting to know if I had heard from this person. I said no but I would go and check. I did and could not get a answer on the phone or at the door. I called the police, they went in and found her dead. I hold guilt that if I had been there I might have seen her one more time, or in need of help and call for it, or no answer and call family and have them call 911. She had been dead since that time. I won't know the answers if I had gone. I pray God will forgive me. If someone comes to your mind and again please call them to check on them. They may need prayer and/or need help right then. I have listened in the past and will have learned from this. The neighbors feel as bad as they were to take her somewhere and got no answer and left without her. Since she will be creamated and no funeral, I have no closure not seeing her in a coffin. I am grateful to God that I wasn't the one to find her. I will miss her and wished she would have trusted someone with a key, she might have gotten help from the neighbor.

silver 4 months ago

I found my grandmother today. She was cold with foam on her mouth and pale. I didn't realize what happened at first. When the operator of our first aid told me to check the stiffness, I think that was the worst moment of my life so far. I got some pills but am afraid to go to sleep. I am terrified I will see her.

Pam 4 months ago

It's been a couple of months since I posted after finding my uncle dead with his wife, a dementia sufferer, wandering their house as she'd been doing for days. Wanted to check back here to say that the intrusive image of him did finally recede to some place where it rarely pops up now, and I am sleeping again without big lights and the t.v. on. It took about four months for the worst of the feelings to go away, and there were set-backs at times of higher stress. If I could offer up any advice to folks here it would be to forgive yourself that you weren't there when it might have helped, and to give yourself the time and space to feel better. I know the images will never go away completely, but...really, I think time will help. Thanks to everyone who posts here. Like another person wrote, this was the only forum of its type that I could find when I went looking, and it was very helpful to know that others were out there facing the same struggle. Wishing you all peace.

Zeke 4 months ago

I found my friend/co worker tore in half between 2 semi's at work, in my work bay no doubt it happened almost right infront of me and I had no idea. I tried going to the funeral but the brothers started to call me a killer before I even got in the door, and his daughter was crying asking why I killed her dad. I'm not sure how to deal with it that was in 93 and I still have dreams about it.

Zeke 4 months ago

Sorry I meant between semi tractor and trailer the other co/worker was hooking it up. ( just to clarify)

DeeJay 4 months ago

Today I found my roommate and best friend dead in her car. Carbon monoxide. The neighbor rang my doorbell and asked if I knew she was in her car unconsious. Obviously I didn't. I ran to her car. It was cold out. She was just sitting there in her coat with a little pink flower in her hair. Her head resting against the window. I pounded on the glass window by her ear very hard, but she didn't even flinch. I needed to see if she was sleeping so I got down to see her eyes and they were half open, blank and looking at nothing. I became frantic and i tried to open the door but it was locked. I called 911 but they were already coming. Moments later the paramedic pulled me aside and said "as I'm sure you know by now, she's gone" and I lost it. I'm lost in a world of shock and extreme emotion. I'm so mad at her for leaving me with that image for life.

DeeJay 4 months ago

Today I found my roommate and best friend dead in her car. Carbon monoxide. The neighbor rang my doorbell and asked if I knew she was in her car unconsious. Obviously I didn't. I ran to her car. It was cold out. She was just sitting there in her coat with a little pink flower in her hair. Her head resting against the window. I pounded on the glass window by her ear very hard, but she didn't even flinch. I needed to see if she was sleeping so I got down to see her eyes and they were half open, blank and looking at nothing. I became frantic and i tried to open the door but it was locked. I called 911 but they were already coming. Moments later the paramedic pulled me aside and said "as I'm sure you know by now, she's gone" and I lost it. I'm lost in a world of shock and extreme emotion. I'm so mad at her for leaving me with that image for life.

Michael 12 4 months ago

So today I got home from school at 2:10 and went to my neibors house and he did not answer and I smelld somthing strang so I looked in the window and he was laying there ded for almost 6 weeks so I called the cops and they came withe the fire department and broke the door down and there he was ded on the floor for 6 weeks so sad

Mariana 3 months ago

I found my brother dead a year ago (then I was 19 years old). I went to his room to ask him if he want something to eat and I found him at a weird position. I laughed because it was funny, and I told him "Agustin, wake up", he didn´t answer so I came closer and repeated that.

I started to shake him and he wouldn´t wake up. I don´t know when I started screaming -I don´t even know if I screamed, but I supposed because I wake my parents-. It was horrible, my father tried to do CPR while my mother screamed and I tried to called the ambulance, but the phone didn´t work, I panicked and went to the msn trying to tell my friends to call the ambulance.

My father decided to take him to the hospital himself, so I open the doors and I started to yell and cried, and people started coming out of their houses and I couldn´t speak, I had to call my sister and tell her what happened but I couldn´t calm down. I tried to help my father bringing my brother in the car, and I couldn´t help him. My parents went to the hospital and I stayed waiting for my sister, and then we went but I knew that it was over, I could only thing "well, it´s over".

When I found him, when I saw that he dind´t respond I knew he was dead and that there was nothing to do. My family was full of hope, waiting for the doctors to say that he was saved, but I knew that it was over. I felt guilty for thinking that, because I don´t know, I don´t believe in god or anything, but maybe hoping would had help him? that doesn´t make any sense, but I still feel guilty. Maybe if I had go to ask him sooner I could had stop it.

The cause of his dead has a technical term that I don´t remember (I tried really hard to forget everything about his death, I don´t even go to the cemetary).

And the doctor weren´t really sure, but he was playing with a bottle of helio that makes the voice sounds funny. I was so annoyed that he had -possibly- died because of something so stupid! I wanted to insult him so much, I lost him for such a stupid thing!. He was so beautiful, popular, young (he was 15), funny, he had a lot of friends, he had so much life to live...

I get panic when I can´t see the respiration of the people that is sleeping. I got really nervous with my niece (she has 5 months) because she likes to sleep covering her face with a sheet and I start thinking that she can´t breath and that if something happens to her she can´t yell or something because she´s a baby.

The other day she was sleeping and she was so still so I started calling her name and shaking her and she wouldn´t move, I almost started crying and yelling when I saw that she started sucking pacifier. Then I was all day worrying about her and asking if she was okey. My sister gets mad when I tell her to be careful with her way of sleep, but I can´t control myself, I´m afraid all the time.

I´m sorry that I wrote so much and i´m so sorry for my poor english, but I had to tell somebody and even if no one reads this I hope this makes me feel better even if now I´m crying. I miss him so much that it can´t even be expressed in words.

Priya K 3 months ago

I have come across your post while searching for "Rights of a dead person" because someone has posted pictures of a dead body of a little girl. its very disturbing and i was just searching net for ones (Deceased) right to oppose to such thing. i wasn't lucky but found your hub. I am from a country where we have faced a civil war for 30 years. seeing dead bodies every day was part of life for some of my country men for more than 30 years. we are out of war now. i would like to share some of my experience about death & bodies. I am a survivor of a terrorist Bomb attack 16 years ago (I was 26 then) I have witness 4 of my colleagues scattered bodies and many more bodies torn apart in pieces. some are actually not dead but dying. I have still not recovered from it fully.(with one blind eye, Deaf year and disfigured left arm which will never be corrected) but seeing dead body after that had not upset me anymore. i have got kind of an immune to the feeling of seeing death and pain. 11 months ago I was at the side of my sister who died of breast cancer and i was numb to the pain of loosing her at her death. i handle her death and informed the relevant authorities and parties to facilitate removal of her body immediately. but after sometimes i have kind of a disappointment bothering me that I have not done anything to stop her dying even though i knew for sure that myself or anyone else could have done nothing to stop her dying. but am yet to overcome that emotional dilemma.

John 3 months ago

People here always say we did cpr but so and so was already dead thats who you do cpr on is a dead person.

if there is no rigor or levidity you do cpr unless there injuries incompatible with life.

we as a people need to stop hideing death its a part of life. for a person of faith its not the end.

Mariana 3 months ago

John, it doesn´t matter if you´re a person of faith or not, when you´re in a situation like that you can´t think, you just react in a instinct way, the only thing you try to do is to stop it, to stop that person going away. And if is one of your beloved ones the most natural reaction is to try to make them come again, even if you rationality know that they are dead.

TaylorLee 3 months ago

Last year right before I was about to head back to college after winter break, my mother and I found my grandmother in her home. She hadn't been answering phonecalls so we wanted to make sure she was ok. When we got to the house it was just so quite and eery, I remember me and my mom called out for my grandmother. I knew something wasn't right and I remember feeling so weak, like this huge sense of dread. That feeling just hasn't left me. My mom was the one who found my grandmother in the living room. She immediately cried out "Oh my God!" and ran past me. I knew what she saw and i followed her out of the house. Both of us were in histerics and I hadn't even seen my grandmother's body yet. When we finally worked up the courage to go back in... I have 2 images of my grandmother's body seared into my mind. Her pale white/grey feet sticking out from next to the small table as we entered the living room and the image of her body as i stood before her, dried brown blood from her nose and mouth, the dried bloody rag in her right hand, her distended stomach. It was clear she had been dead a few days. I just cannot unsee those images. I have been having dreams of her for the past year and I just can't stop thinking about it! I've tried to see a therapist but that did nothing. I don't know how to deal with it. It only seems to be getting worse with time. Also the day after her funeral I went back to school which is 10 hrs from home. The part that mostly tears me up inside is the fact that I could have been there for her. I was home during winter break, I wasn't doing anything! She died of an aortic aneurysm and my aunt who's a nurse tells me there's nothing I could have done for her had I been there. I just wish she didn't have to go alone. That's what bothers me every damn day for the past year. I wasn't there for my grandmother when I could have been. It was because of me she died painfully and alone in her house just down the road from where I live. She was dead for 2 days and we didn't know it.

katie 3 months ago

Wow, it must be cool to live in a world where all coroners are male. Once the coroner is done with "his" investigation, pssssh.

eas 3 months ago

i got a call christmas eve that my parents had gotten in a fight and i needed to check on my dad, when i got home i went into his room to find him dead with his heart blown through the back of his chest from a .44 gun shot. ill never forget that day it fucked me up. it was 2009 its now 2012 and i can see it as clear as the day it happened. i hope to god none of you ever ever ever have to go through what i have.

anonymous 3 months ago

I meet up with a friend today that I hadn't seen in a couple of months. He was not his normal self. When I asked him what was wrong he said that a few months ago an employee had not shown up for work. He drove around to his house and when he went around the back he saw him hanging off the back porch. It actually took him awhile to tell me of this horrible finding... he was still visibly shaken. He broke down about it and said he couldn't believe how purple his arms and legs were. He rung for an ambulance and they wanted him to check his body, but he couldn't go near him. He is getting counseling and been put on medication. It was hard for me to see how much it has affected him as he is normally such a strong carefree person. He sat jigging his legs for nearly a hour after we stopped talking about it. Now I can't get these pictures out of my head. I can't sleep I keep seeing everything he described in my head. It's kinda ironic really, cause for the past 6 months I have thought very seriously about killing myself. I don't feel depressed just rather over it. I planned how I was going to do it, just not when I was going to do it. I wasn't going to leave a note as I have no idea what to put in it. I'm 30 now and have spent the last 8 years shutting everyone out of my life. I spend most of the time by myself as I don't want to be around people. I was abused as a kid, picked on at school and have tried relationships but feel awkward being touched or even loved. Sorry I went off track and don't mean to ramble, people who actually know me wouldn't have a clue about what I'm contemplating. The problem is the only thing I didn't think about was how my family and those who know me would be affected. Seeing how badly it affected my friend today really made me think. I do have a heart and I feel terrible that it could affect the people who do know me so badly. I don't want them to have to see my purple bloated deceased body. I hope I have the strength to go on. Again sorry for going off topic but I have a lot going on in my head at the moment.

c 2 months ago

my sis took an OD my other sis was staying with her and found her she done CPR compressions 260 till paramedics got there but there was black blood coming out of her mouth and nose does this mean she had already passed? my sis is blaming herself because she couldnt bring her back just wondering if she had reached the point of no return by then as me and my other sis are arguing that she had passed by then and the breath she took was the last of the air leaving her body and my other sis is saying she couldve been resucitated by my other sis, but the blood indicates to me that her organs had shut down by then. Any help on this would be appreciated for some closure even though in cases like this there really isnt any.

B 2 months ago

I have never seen somebody who has passed away and I have never attended a funeral. Reading these stories made me cry so much. I have a bleeding heart for those who have witnessed death. I'm so sorry and I wish you all the best.

Haze; 2 months ago

Dead Body's Smell like how battered and manky Red Graped taste

dont do it anoynomoua 2 months ago

Anonymous, please call for help. I am very worried about you and I don't know who you are. There is help available for you by calling the national suicide hotline. Please please locate the number and call them. I will be praying for you and your friend. I hope this note reaches you.

Sue 2 months ago

I found my best friend dead.she had pneumonia her mom called to see if I had heard from her. I saw her two days prior I had her mother on the phone with me the whole time up til I called 911. I feel bad because I said I would be over next nite.i did not go because I worked late and my kids were waiting for me. I have been dealing but I have a hard te she is gone. I don't know why she died but others are making assumptions I know in my heart are not correct. I will not forget her face and wish I would have called the police instead of thing she was sleeping and did not want to be bothered. I have tried several things to get over this does anyone have advice fore

alysa 2 months ago

i found my dad dead at the hospital in bed looking yellow just about 5 weeks ago. worst time of my life. after the funeral has been difficult ti know that i dont have a dad for the rest of my life. im only 13 and a half turning 14 in 5 months. im not sure how im going to cope with this....

Joan 2 months ago

I have never been through the trauma that most of the other posters' have so I feel a bit like a wuss, and like I'm intruding in posting my experience. I own a MHP for seniors and so have seen more dead bodies on my own property, watched more people die, had to go through more living units stuffed with the detritus of the dead and had to track down and call more strangers to inform them of a death, than I think most non-medico or LEO people ever have to. I'm usually professional about it, but lately it's been really bothering me that it has happened enough that I have a whole protocol in place. Maybe it's cumulative, but it's starting to spill over into the rest of my life-- depression, anxiety, exhaustion, et cetra. I have no training in this and have yet to find a source to help me cope, since what I'm dealing with is not grief for a loved one, or the aftershocks of trauma. Where can I find information on how to keep a wall between this and me?

Pippa 2 months ago

25 years ago tomorrow, I discovered the dead body of my beautiful, sweet and tender-hearted 20yr old friend and colleague when myself and 2 other colleagues went to her home during our lunch break after she didn't show up for work that morning. She had died of heart failure after an overdose (I had to attend the inquest as a witness) and had been dead for only about an hour or so. I remember everything about that day as clearly as if it was yesterday! Nothing about the memory has ever faded! It plays like a full colour, HD movie in my head, complete with smells and physical sensations, especially on grey days at this time of year. I love Daffodils but the sight of them will always remind me. I will carry the deep guilt about not getting to her sooner forever (I knew she was depressed and she had told me of some suicidal thoughts). I felt so sorry for her parents, her brothers and her boyfriend. If only I could go back in time... I miss her so much, she was such a lovely girl who would have never hurt anyone.

journeytoend84 7 weeks ago

my fiance and i found his son 25 for a week's body...his mom called to say his then gf/roommate called and said she was scared he was choking on his own vomit...4 hrs and 25 minutes prior she told his dad who called his son that he was sleeping she was taking home friends who'd stayed over...these 3 murdered him by drugging him with meds he knew not to mix....he was well educated in his job knew about the ones who killed him and that mixing was lethal..they staged scene to look as he did it which cops fell for a ridiulous thing they set up..and ruled accidental od with no investigation....they told police they left him on back vomiting....we ran into one of them recently who said they left to go to someone elses for a ridiculous reason...something you dont do when someones dying unless you killed them..his father busted window as they left him behind deadbolted door he choked on his own vomit..they didn't call 911 they wouldn't have called anyone till his dad put them in a panic...it was horrific..we had to pick piece by piece of glass before i could push/lift him in window..we immediatly smelled vomit..we were too late..had the gf told his dad we could have/or paramedics could have saved him with narcolone they didnt want him saved..she returned after the body found..we are still haunted..especially his dad..

Sylv123 7 weeks ago

I found my grandma in bed two days ago. (April 3) she had a bad heart and other problems. The dr assumed heart attack. The thing is when I was fixing her up bed sheets and that I noticed blood on her pillow like she coughed it up and she had a big gash on her arm ( no blood around it ) I assume this gash is the petrifaction state? Does anyone know? And the coughe blood? Are these side effects of death or heart attack??

sulene 6 weeks ago

i found a loved one , a year ago...after he shot himself. it wil never ever leave me..that image. i had left the room for a few seconds, when the shot went off.its really so difficult to describe what i felt.everything is a blur,and yet ,i remember every detail!! he was lying on his back, with the rifle on his chest.his head was turned sideways, his eyes half open.blood was running from his nose and when that single droplet came from his ear, it sent me right over the edge.an caveman-like feeling came over me. i can remember shouting his name and howling like an animal in pain.this is not something i wish on my worst enemy.still today..i know i need help.

Deborah 5 weeks ago

I found my boyfriend dead in his home. He had been dead 13 days with the heater blowing. I guess I went into shock. I was happy to finally have found him. He had a low grade fever and I was monitoring by phone and with short visits fearing he had swine flu. The last time we talked he told me he loved me and would see me in the morning. When I was finally able to get into the house and opened the kitchen door, it was very obvious what was going to be found. My only fear was that when the coroner turned him over he might explode. He was estranged from all of his family members and when they were notified I didn't even get to go back into the house for my personal effects . I have no idea where his body is and I think about this every day, wondering if I will ever heal enough to find another love. I don't understand the brutality of his family as I bellieved that in death people could become forgive others and become human.

A 5 weeks ago

I found my boyfriend on the toilet dead. Eyes closed. I worked on him..new he was gone but was still in schock he took an opiate. I am so angry..where is he now

casey 4 weeks ago

I just found my friends mom dead in her chair. She overdosed on zanax. She had been gone for a while and no one in the apartment notice for a while. The image is the hardest. Rip carrol. Sorry.

John 3 weeks ago

I came home from work tonight and found my partner of 22 years dead from a heart attack we think. Mark had two already in the past five years or so. I was frantic, and still am. I don't want this to be real. The coroner was here and this was nearly six hours ago know, and I am so torn up, I tried CPR with 911 on the phone, and I just can't tell you how unreal this all seems now. I am so scared, and heart broken, I just had to tell some third party somewhere. What next??

John age 45 Carmel, Indiana.